Welcome to my weight loss journey! I was sleeved on 6/6/11
Went in for tummy tuck and breast reduction 12/11/12

Sunday, December 30, 2012


Yesterday was rough....I took about fifteen steps back yesterday. Every move I made yesterday, I felt like my guts were going to pour out of my belly button. I know it's just part of the healing process...some days are better than others, but dadgum....I'm ready to be better! I've noticed, that since I've gotten older its's much harder for me to come back from surgeries. I never thought there would be a worse surgery than my sleeve surgery, but I stand corrected. This tummy tuck has been really hard. My body isn't just bouncing back. They said four to six weeks....and they weren't lying! Yesterday was the first time that I asked myself why I wanted this. Then I took my shower this morning and didn't have to fight a flap of skin and I remembered why. Most of my steri strips have come off. And I really wish I couldn't see what was under there. The incision for my tummy tuck is amazing! Barely even visible. As you saw from my picture yesterday, my belly button is disgusting. It doesn't hurt as bad today as it did yesterday, but getting up and down has become a fine science. LOL my boobs is where I start to freak out. The incision is much more visible up there. Kinda scary to look at. I have to put some brown tape over the incisions once the steri strips came off, so luckily I can't see them all the time. I'm very impatient, as you can tell, and I'm ready to see the final product. I just keep reminding myself....one day at a time...and each day is getting better.

Saturday, December 29, 2012


So....everyone has been making fun of me, because I'm more excited about having a visible belly button than perky boobs. LOL Well, when you haven't seen your belly button in over 10 years, you might be able to understand....which, might I add, I hope never happens to any of you. See, when I was a wee baby, I had umbilical hernia. They had to completely reconstruct my belly button. So I had a 6 inch scar from one side of it to the other. It was a pretty belly button, but with all the weight loss and gain, I created a flap of skin that hung over it. Once I'm brave enough to post a before picture, you'll understand what I'm talking about. I've called it my tummy's sad face. LOL so I got my camera out a snapped a pic of my new belly button. It's absolutely disgusting right now, but I can fully see its potential! I can't wait to be healed. I still hurt, but now it's just a ridiculously annoying and miserable pain. I'm only taking pain pills at night, Tylenol during the day. I'm so ready to be able to get up and go, but it's just not possible. If I stand longer than 5 minutes it feels like everything is going to fall out my belly button. I'll be better soon though....hopefully...lol. Well, here's the pic...enjoy being grossed out! ;)

Thursday, December 27, 2012


We meet again! I missed laying in bed and falling asleep next to my very handsome husband. They pulled the tubes yesterday and I feel 50% better than I have been! I slept well, my shower went well this morning and I'm moving around better already. They really weren't lying about the excess fluid coming out of my incisions and belly button though! And might I add, it stinks. So gross....but the nurse is a genius. She said to put a panty liner over my belly button and any leaks in my incision and it will not only soak up the fluid, but it will also soak up the smell....smart lady! Well...that's all I have today. Sleep was marvelous last night :) and my swelling is down quite substantially today :)

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

2 week checkup.

Well, this morning they checked me out and yanked two drain tubes out of me...just so everyone knows, this is not painful. I broke out in a sweat before she pulled the first one. I was scared to death that it was going to hurt. I could only feel a weird sensation under my skin, then nothing. I'm healing very nicely and I'm healthy as a horse :) I go back on January 8th, for my 4 week checkup. I'm so glad I went through with this....I hurt, I can't stand up straight and I only sleep when I take a pain pill....but I know that it will all pass and I'll be back to normal soon. Til then, I will be whiney and mildly cranky....but it will pass. Hope your Christmas was amazing!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

2 weeks post op...

Merry Christmas! Today was my number one concern when chance told me my surgery date. I had to be well enough to enjoy Christmas with my babies, and I have! So far today has been perfect. I did way too much in the past few days and my body is paying for it today. I'm very swollen and I'm just plain sore. So today, at the order of my mother in law, I'm grounded to my chair. I'm not gonna complain, it's really nice having family around to take care of me and give my poor hubby a break. I still have not weighed myself or done measurements. I figure they might do weight tomorrow when I go in to have my drain tubes removed. I'm hoping they take out both, but I have a stinking suspicion that they're only going to take out one. My hips are sore...I want them out. Well...that's my whine for the day ;) hope everyone is having an amazing holiday with family and friends alike. I'm missing a few very important people today....I hope they're first Christmas In Heaven is bringing them joy and happiness...cause boy o boy, I know a few families who are really hurting this year. Love you all & God bless :)

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Pain Killers are the Devil...

Pain killers...yes, they have helped me through numerous surgeries and I appreciate them more than anyone could ever know. And up until I became old, I never had a problem with them. Well today I would like to fill you in on my past twenty four hours.

I went in Tuesday for my one week postoperative appointment and everything was great and grand. I told them that I hadn't pooped in a week. TMI. Yes, I know, but I've always told my readers that I will be disgustingly honest about all my business. They told me it was normal, to go to Target and get some magnesium citrate, mix with sprite, chug and it would definitely get things moving. Well it sure did....painfully so.

I ended up in the ER last night at 7. I left the ER without even seeing a doctor at 3:30am. I talked to a really nice nurse and she told me to try an enema. I come home in pain and tears and are my pour husband up to drive up to the northwest to the only 24 hour drugstore in town. He gets back quickly and then he has to give this thing to me. Ummmmm...first of all, how embarrassing. Second of all, how disgusting. Third of all, do you have any idea how hard it is to get on your hands and knees and put your butt in the air one week after a tummy tuck and breast reduction!? Well, let me tell you, I ran out of tears. 6am rolls around and all I have is excruciating pain. I go back to the packed ER. The lovely gentleman that checked me in at 7 the night before was helping an elderly lady to her car and saw me sitting in the waiting room. He came over and I busted out in tears. He got me to the back with a doctor in les than 30 minutes. He was my angel today and I'm so grateful to him. So the doctor comes in. He says it sounds like you're impacted. WTF!? Yeah, so he proceeded to do a rectal exam and pulled a wee little bit of poo out. Worst pain of my life. He apologized, helped me up and told me that the Vicodin was the leading cause of constipation. I am not a medical person. I really had no idea. I got a little bit backed up during my sleeve recovery, but nothing like this. He had the nurse bring in all sorts of things to take, then they kicked me out and said hurry home, quickly. They weren't lying. LOL. whatever they gave me worked a miracle. A very painful miracle. But I'm glad to say that I am resting and recouping and I'm thankful that its all over.

So moral of the story. Pay attention after a surgery, and make sure you're pooping. I had 8 days worth impacted, more or less.

Disgusting. TMI. Sorry I shared this, but if it helps someone in the future, I served my purpose.

Other than this, I'm feeling really good. Just another bump in the road. Last night was the first time in a long time that I cried for my Mommy. Don't ever want to go through that again...so I'm pushing tons of water and taking stool softener and cut down on Pain meds. I had completely quit and I was just bearing the pain. They said that's stupid. Don't do it. Ok. I've learned my lesson.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Been a while....

It's been a while since I updated you guys....so here's the short details.
  • Met with Dr. Keyes.  Didn't care for him....in fact couldn't stand the man.  He was very self absorbed and rude.  I believe the sign of good character is to walk in and introduce yourself and shake someone's hand while looking them in the eye.  He did none of those things.  I do not recommend him. 
  • About 1 month ago,I went to Beautologie and I met with Dr. Knoetgen.  Chance came with me and we both liked him a lot.  I have done business with Beautolgie before and they've always been very professional.  To tell you the truth, I hadn't heard very good things about their surgeons.  Dr. Knoetgen is a contract doctor through Beautologie.  He was so nice and took his time during the consult.  In fact, all of the staff took their time and answered a lot of my "stupid" questions.  I decided I wanted Dr. K to do my surgeries.  He advised against the Belt Lipectomy and that made me ecstatic!  That really scared the crap outta me.  He said I am saggy in my hind end, but that I didn't have rolls of skin hanging so why go through all that pain just to get a small amount of tightened skin.  I couldn't agree more!  And since I wasn't going to be cut all the way around, we could do the breast lift at the same time.   So I put it off....not wanting to spend the money on the surgeries.  I'm not a vain person....in fact I put my own stuff off as long as I can, because I would much rather buy things and do activities with the kids and Chance, than spend money on myself....especially plastic surgery.  It just seems wrong on so many levels to me. 
  • So the day before Thanksgiving my husband calls and says, how would you like to go in for surgery on December 10th?   I laughed at him and said he was mean to tease me like that...lol....he was dead serious.  No joking about it.  He had already set the date for my surgery.  He said he knew I would never do this for myself and he knew I wanted it done.   So he took it upon himself to book my surgery date.  I love him so much :)
  • I went in for an extended tummy tuck and breast lift on December 11th at 11am.  I was all done and wrapped up in bed by 4:30pm. 
Things I wasn't prepared for....
  • Needless to say, when you in for surgery, especially plastic surgery, you are someones canvas.  Just like my clients are my canvas for hair and makeup.  You kinda have to give yourself over to them and trust them...A LOT.   I chose Dr. Knoetgen because I trusted him.   He decided the morning of, while writing on me with that damn blue marker that he wanted to sculpt me a bit with some liposuction.   I didn't think anything about it!  At all....boy...was I stupid.  I hadn't done any research at all on lipo.  And let me tell you....the recovery HURTS!  I seriously feel like someone went at me with a baseball bat.  I don't understand how people can keep going in over and over for some lipo.  I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy.  It hurts. 
  • Drain Tubes.....I was expecting one.  I came out with two.  They are the most annoying thing I've ever had to deal with.  You have to keep them in at least 10 days.  I'm on my 6th day.  I'm not draining very much, thank goodness, so I should be right on track to take them out on the 10 day mark.   The area where they enter my body is so sore, but to tell you the truth, I'm more annoyed with them than the pain they cause. 
  • Dr. Peppers.   I have once again, given them up.  I haven't had one in a week.   Being a post bariatric patient, it was incredibly stupid for me to start them up again...but there is just something about that syrupy goodness that is amazing to me!  LOL
  • Pictures... I knew they were going to take before pictures at the office.  I just had no idea they were going to give me a copy of them.   In fact, I wish they wouldn't have.  I truly don't know how Chance could stand to look at me naked.  He just calls me stupid when I say things like that, but wow.   My pour tummy, from all the surgeries I've had since I was a baby, really make my tummy look like a mangled war zone.   Glad to say that this surgery removed all the scars and now I just have the one scar that will sit below my underwear line. 
So as of today, I am 6 days post op.   I've tried weaning myself off my meds and that was stupid.  I'm not ready to deal with the pain.   I have my pre-op appointment tomorrow at 3:30 and I can't wait to see what he thinks.   I have a belly button now.  I haven't seen my belly button in years....and years...and years...  It is a really gross, scabbed up mess right now, but it's so beautiful!!!  I have a flat tummy and a belly button!  And this may be TMI, but it lifted my crotch up as well!  WOOT WOOT!  LOL  All you bigger girls know EXACTLY what I'm talking about.   I can't wait to get back in the gym and work on the six pack I've always wanted!  I can't wait to go running without having to wear 3 different compression belts to keep my tummy from slapping my thighs.  And I can't wait to lay out by the pool all by myself in a bikini!   My boobs don't really hurt at all.  And he didn't have to cut as much as he thought he was going to have to cut.  I only have the lollipop incision instead of the anchor and lollipop incisions.   I can't wait to see how I look all healed.  I just have to keep reminding myself that everyday the swelling goes down and every day I'm closer to getting mback to normal.   I really hate being laid up. 

To all my friends who have lost a lot of weight, so far, this surgery is totally worth it.  I know I'm going to feel so much better in my own skin after this.  I can't wait to wear a pants that actually fit me, instead of buying a size bigger to stuff the skin into.  I can't wait to buy a bra that actually fits and not be falling out the front and both sides because my skin was overflowing everywhere!  I vow not to ever wear a bikini in public, oh but I will rock that shit at home ;)  lol

Hope today finds everyone happy and healthy.  My thoughts and prayers are still flowing towards Connecticut.  I just can't fathom how someone could do something so terrible.  And that's all I have to say about that. 

I will be posting my before pics as soon as I can take some decent after pics.  :) 

Bye for now ~~Billie Lynn

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Moving on....

Lots has been happening this summer and it has all been great!  About a week ago, I hit the 100 lb mark!  I couldn't believe it, then I got distracted and forgot to post about it.  It lasted one day and I was back at 184 the next day...LOL  I'm staying between 181 and 186 all week long.  And I'm very happy about that.  I only ever posted about my weight I was the day before surgery.....I've never posted my start weight at the very beginning of my attempted lifestyle change.   The number would be 302.  wow....I just wrote that down...not cool....But I can't hang my head low....I've come so far.....

So today, I took a step in the right direction, or at least I think it was...lol...I had my first consultation with a plastic surgeon.  Chance and I drove down to Newport Beach today and had a consultation with Dr. Sanjay Grover.  He is probably one of the kindest men I've ever come into contact with...especially in this field.  He wasn't about sugarcoating anything, but still kept me calm and comfortable when I was wearing next to nothing...LOLOL...so odd. 

He told me my options for surgery.  I had in my head that I just needed a tummytuck and breast lift.   Little did I know that my thoughts were less than what was needed....oy. 

My FIRST surgery would be a Belt Lipectomy.  Look it up....I'd never heard of it before.  Essentially, I will be cut all the way around and all the loose skin with be removed.  I have decided to call this surgery a Trunk tuck.  LOL  Yep...that's what I'm calling it.  I thought I had excess fat on my hips...little did I know that it is actually mounds of loose skin!!  Great to know, just sucks that it's going to have to be cut off.   I know in my heart of hearts that I will be so much more comfortable with myself once all this sagging disgusting skin is gone.  But I will not lie and say that this doesn't scare the shit out of me, because it does....

My SECOND surgery will be a breast lift/reduction.  I have so much saggy skin and extra breast tissue just hanging that I will have to have the surgery by itself.   They can't do both surgeries at once because of the massive amounts of tissue they will have to remove from my stomach and breasts. 

I have worked so hard for this and now it comes down to this...lol...so odd.   It's kind of bittersweet.  

I'll report back tomorrow after my next consult with Dr. Keyes.  I'm excited to meet him and see what his thoughts are. 

Til then...take care and be blessed!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Happy Surgiversary!!!

Well folks...today marks one year of living my life again.  One year of the biggest trials and tribulations I've ever faced.  I've made amazing friends and I've lost a few.  But I wouldn't change it for the world.  I can run and play and swim and roll and jump...well you get the point...lol...And I can do it all with a smile on my face and not get too winded.  I still have a very long way to go to be a really healthy me, but I'm growing and learning day by day.  So drum roll please!  Here's the measurements :)

I've lost:
2" neck
1/2" left wrist
1/2" right wrist
5 3/4"  left upper arm
5 1/2" right upper arm
8 1/2" chest
11" waist
15 1/2" hips
6" left thigh
6.5" right thigh
2" left calf
2.5" right calf
Dress size went from 24 to 12!!
Shirt size went from XXXL to M/L
Bra size went from 40F to 36DDD
Ring size went from 9 to 7
Shoe size went from 9.5 to 8


I can't believe it!  Well I can...but it's still pretty surreal.

Thanks for all the support!  I'm one happy lady :)

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

11 months...

May 6th marked the 11 month date.  I can't believe it has already almost been a year!  It's so exciting to see how far I've come in this last 11 months!  I've really buckled down on my food intake the past few days and it's already paying off!  I let those pesky Dr. Peppers slip back in and it about hung me.  I actually got all the way back up to 190.  Then I had a minor freak out and now as of this morning, I'm down to 185.6!  WOOT WOOT!  It's all about the foods you're eating people!  It's a perfect balanced meal for a reason!  LOL  I'm learning this, slowly, but surely.  I'll be doing measurements at my year mark!  I'm excited to see how many inches total I've lost! 

Til next month :)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

10 months....

April 6th, made it 10 months since my surgery! I didn't hit my goal of 100 lbs down by April 6th, but I did come super close! 95 lbs down! That's so awesome!

I really thought I would have a weight gain to report today, but miraculously I didn't...lol...I had put on about 3 lbs over the week. The kiddos were out of spring break and we snacked...a lot...but woke up this morning and weighed in and BAM! Still the same weight....186.4 so no news is good news I guess! HAHA!

Hope you all have a very blessed week! I'm off to the salon!

Monday, March 26, 2012

Weigh in Day :)

Every Monday is my actual weigh in day, but to be honest, I weigh every-single-solitary-day. It's really sad, but I have to admit, I live to see that number on the scale move. I long for the day when I won't care about that number. And it's getting closer and closer. I know that I will forever live in maintenance mode, but I can handle that! I'm excited about that! So...here's the results for the week.

SW: 281.8
CW: 188.8

I lost 1.4 lbs since Friday. And 2.6 lbs in the last month. Slowly but surely! Just the way I like it!

Have a good week everybody!

I'm only 7 lbs away from 100 lbs lost! WOOT WOOT!

Sunday, March 25, 2012


Today marks the day that I broke into the 180's!!!! Ya know...when you get stuck, and that scale just won't move, you think you'll never hit that weight that you've been working to get to....ever. But then that little number moves just a little and it renews your hope! I am in no way at my goal, but holy smokes I'm close!!!
SW: 281.8
CW: 189.2
I am a meer 9.2 lbs away from weighing 180 lbs!!! That's been my goal since before I got my surgery! It's so close, I can taste it!
When I hit 199, I was scared to death that I would either stop right there, or go back up....but here at 189, I'm feeling pretty confident that I'm going to keep going down. Slowly but surely :)
Onto other things....I did my first bridal hairstyle yesterday as a professional! It turned out amazing! Plus, she's like drop dead gorgeous, so it really wouldn't matter what I did, she'd make it look good. So happy for the newly weds! Here's a pic...until next week :)

Friday, March 23, 2012


Well, its been forever. I haven't been losing anything so I figured I might as well not update. I weighed in today and I've lost .4 lbs.

SW: 281.8
CW: 190.2

I'm a happy camper. I think this might be my bodies happy weight. If I could get my nip and tuck now, I really think I'd be perfect. Well in my eyes...lol...I've never wanted to be stick thin. Just healthy. I look really great and healthy right now. My boobs are driving me crazy...but what's new? LOL I definitely see a boob job in my future...lol...and my stomach looks disgusting...so much loose skin. Oh well...it'll get chopped off....eventually. I feel so great and I can run with my kiddos, so I'm a happy camper.

Work is awesome. I've hit a few snags but I think I've handled it pretty well. All I know is that I love what I do and I have people that think I'm pretty darn good at what I do too.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012


I did a 12 minute mile this morning!! YAY ME!! I usually take 15 minutes...but not today!

I'm feeling really good...I've been eating like crap though....I did really well yesterday...I let Dr.Pepper in...and now I'm trying to kick him out again....I love that stuff...My doctor said one a day won't kill me...but I know me...one will turn into 2...3...4...etc. And I don't want that. So I figure if I treat it like sweets I'll be ok....every once in a while.

Things at the salon are going good. It has been a slow week, but that's alright...I've made enough to cover booth rent and at this point, that's really all I care about :) I really love what I do.

I've been working more on the emotional sides of things. I'm sick of looking in the mirror and still seeing that 300lb fat girl...I would really like to start seeing what everyone else sees. I was cutting hair yesterday and I caught a glimpse of her. It was crazy and mildly surreal. My client asked if everything was alright...cause I'm pretty sure I vapor locked and stared for a second...lol...I have a waist...pure craziness...lol...and I could see my collar bone yesterday....I haven't seen that since I was like 16....but it's there. I was laying in bed and I could see my ribs sticking out...and my hips....and all I could think was damn...that's disgusting! LMAO But I know that when I get my tuck and boob job done, it will all keep falling into place.

I weighed in this morning and I weigh 191.2. So I'm down .2 lbs. That's cool! Especially with the amount of weights I've been lifting and the amount of CRAP I've been eating...LOLOL

Oh well...til next time :)

Thursday, February 9, 2012


SW: 281.8

CW: 191.4

WOOOOHOOOOO!! Today marks the day that I've lost 90 lbs!!! SWEEEEET! February 6th, was my 8 month anniversary and I'm super excited to hit this milestone so close to that date....because that was my goal....YAY!

These past few weeks have been so trying for us....Jaxon has been bullied at school...I found out that some people I've called friends didn't think the same thing about me...and well, it sucks when you call one of the most important people in your life for guidance and they don't pick up their phone or call you back....so...my goal for today....don't cry. My son gets his emotional side from me....I'm not ashamed to admit that....I wear my heart on my sleeve and admit when I'm wrong and apologize only when I mean it. So yeah....what a week.

But here's to a new day! It may just be a number, but those numbers are my goals....:)

Hope everyone has a great week! It's almost the weekend!! :)

Monday, January 30, 2012

SW: 281.8

CW: 193

Lost 1.2 lbs this week!

Had a GREAT week! and an AMAZING weekend!!! I take my stateboard test on Thursday! HOLY COW! So excited!! :D

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

NSV...(non scale victory)

So I've gone to the gym the past two days in a row...I guess I pulled something last night because I can barely move today....so I took a super hot soaker bath this morning and I layed down in the tub and I went all the way under the water....WHAT!?!?.....For those of you who are battling the bulge, you can totally understand my excitement!!!! I can see that I don't really have very much fat left in my stomach...it's all just loose skin! Cause it doesn't float like my boobs do...LMAO

HOLY SMOKES! What an amazing feeling!! Just wanted to share :)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Monday, January 23, 2012


me and Brenda....I love this pic! LOLOL

Kaley, Annie, me and Lacee!
Annie and Lacee and Brenda came back just to see me on my graduation day :) I feel loved!

This is Bobby...he's my phase 3 instructor...He's one of the most amazing teachers ever...there were quite a few great teachers at Milan... I'll miss them all.

SW: 281.8
CW: 194.2

Almost 2 lbs this week!!! 1.8 to be exact!

Lots of awesome things happened this last week.

Over the weekend, did TONS of hair....fun times!

Monday: More hair...

Tuesday: shopping with Kaley!!! She held my hand on my very first "skinny" girl shopping extravaganza! Fun times....I don't think I could have done it without her...

Wednesday: Started my final week of beauty school...

Thursday: Had my appointments with the financial aid lady for exit counseling and my appt with Career Services for my portfolio and career plans. She praised me for my portfolio! That was nice :) Aubrey did my hair...and I LOVE IT!

Friday: GRADUATED Beauty School....what an amazing feeling. I've finally completed something in my life. Yeah, sure, I graduated from high school, but even then I never stuck with any of my activities through those days. I went to college...never graduated...granted moving all over the place probably didn't help much...lol...so yeah, this was a big deal for me! I got to run through the tunnel and enjoy a day with my friends. It was nice. Chance even came up to the school to see me clock out for the last time and to see my goofy run through the tunnel! I determined that I'm super tall and it's hard to run under short peoples hands...lol...but it was all worth it. I can't wait to see where my career will take me.

So yeah, it was a good week. Part of me was really sad about leaving Milan, only because I know that some of the people that I talked to, I will probably never speak to again....only on the off chance that I run into them out in public or something...lol...

I went to the gym today for the first time in a very long time. I lasted 45 minutes. Not bad!! I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and then lifted weights the other 30 minutes. My thighs and arms are like jello...lol...pretty amusing. I'm going to have to take some protein with me to the gym if I really wanna last longer...I wanted to tan after I worked out today, but I had to decide between being able to walk out the door and drive home, or lose the rest of my energy in the tanning bed. I don't have much stamina these days. It's hard to work off of 400-800 calories/day but it's getting much easier. I figure since I'm working out, I can eat a little more....more protein of course...but I have to find a way to up those calories to make it through workouts and the day. I came home and made a yummy protein shake.

1C milk
1/2 tsp cocoa
1 tsp hazelnut s/f syrup
1/2 tsp truvia
1 scoop designer whey protein powder chocolate flavor
1TBSP peanut butter
4oz. espresso blend coffee (cooled)
8-10 ice cubes.
blend it all up and enjoy!

super yummy!

This weekend I'm headed down to Long Beach for the ISSE Expo!! Hair show!! Should be fun!

Hope you all have a wonderful week! And thanks for reading! :)

This is the man that has supported me through thick and thin...literally...lol...This is the man that was waiting at the end of the tunnel with a kiss, hug and smile. He told me he was proud of me...those were the sweetest words I've heard in a long time :)

I love you

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

weight loss and depression.....

SW: 281.8
CW: 196.0

Lost a little over a pound this week! WOOT WOOT! Slowly but surely....I'm getting there. I love it! I'm feeling so good these days. My depression has subsided a lot. Which is a bonus. And I credit the meds I'm on for that!

Just a side note...stepping on soapbox...DON'T you EVER judge anyone who has issues with depression. It doesn't make us weird, or different or SICK! We have a mild chemical imbalance in our brains and by GOD that doesn't mean there is a DAMN thing wrong with us. It could last a month a year or for life....who knows... I feel very sorry for the people that want to judge me and others for this. At least I'm getting help for my depression....sure do wish you could get help for being such an asshole, oh wait, they don't make meds for that....cause you CHOOSE to be that way. I feel sorry for people like that. So my dear friends, if you are having issues with depression, go and get your help. There is NO shame in getting help my friends....I did it! So can you :)

Whew....I feel better...sorry bout that! LOL

I'm going shopping today for my interview apparal...lol...I graduate on Friday!!! YAYAYAYAYA!! I'm so excited to start my career! State Board on February 2nd! AHHHHHH! :-) hope you all have a wonderful week!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Almost forgot!

No news is good news. I weigh exactly the same as last week. I started back on my hardcore protein today. I've really been slacking and slowly letting more and more carbs back in. I'm really not ready to stop losing yet. WEll.....Unless I could go get a Mommy makeover right now...then I'd be happy to stop losing...lol

Have a great week everyone!! :)

p.s. 2 weeks left of school!!! January 20th is my last day and State Board on Febuary 2nd!! WOOT WOOT!

Monday, January 2, 2012

Measurement updates :)

SW: 281.8
CW: 197.8

So I've lost 2 lbs in the past two weeks....lol. STILL LOSING! WOOT WOOT!

We did measurements this morning as well....totally forgot about them in December...oops. So here ya go!

left wrist: -1/4
right wrist: -1/4
left upper arm: -1.5
right upper arm: -1 1/4
Chest: same
waist: same
hips: -1 3/4"
left thigh: same
right thigh: -1/2
Dress size: 12 (started at 24)
Shirt size: L (started at XXXL)
Bra size: 38DDD (started at 42I)
Ring size: 7 (started at 9)
Neck: same

So as you can see, I'm still losing. My stomach is CRAZY right now....It's all just skin....and lots of it, and there is still fat under that skin, but it's laying really weird. I was in a 14 last month and now I'm in a 12, but my waist measurements say I haven't lost anything...lol...it's very weird. Chance said he thinks my stomach is redistributing the fat...lol...sounds odd, but makes sense! I look awful so no pictures today....Maybe next month :) Thanks guys! Have a great day!