breaking the rules....

I'm only supposed to weigh on Mondays....but sometimes, I really feel like I need to check myself if I haven't been as good as I'm supposed to be the day before. Well, last night I had 1C of chocolate milk. And I'm talking Hershey's chocolate milk....omg...it's been like 7 weeks and it was better than any ice cream I could have eaten...LOL And it was after 7:00, which is my number 1 rule....DON'T EAT AFTER 7!! So I just wanted to make sure I didn't totally screw myself and to my surprise, the scale read:

244.6 lbs.

WAHOOOO!!

That's exciting! Maybe I should add some chocolate milk in every night after 7:00. LOL



I kid...I kid....but really ;)

7 weeks post op :)

SW: 281.8lbs.
CW: 246lbs.

I lost 3 lbs this week! Super awesome!!

I got insanely sick a few weeks ago, it sucked. I got my blood tests back and apparently I had a mild case of valley fever....how crazy...but I'm all good now! School is going good and I'm feeling pretty good! My back is killing me, can't really bend over...can't wait to get to the chiropractor again! As soon as I'm comfy on my stomach, I'm going in! LOL


Next week is pictures!!! YAYA!! I can't wait to see the difference....hopefully I can see it more...I'm starting to feel it and see it in my clothes..... :)

Hope everyone is doing great!!

6 week post op weigh in...

SW: 281.8lbs.

CW: 249lbs.

Total lost: 32.8 lbs

Holy cow!!! I lost 5lbs this week! I wish I could say that I've been working really hard and whatnot...but I've been sick all week....so there's this weeks secret....oy. I am still not feeling 100%. I'm at about 75% right now...still weak, nauseous, and not hungry. My headache has died down quite a bit, but it's still there. Ya know, once you've had a headache longer than 2 days, you literally start to feel like you're losing your mind.

I go to see my surgeon today for my 6 week appt. We'll see what he says about all this. I'm also having some new pains in my abdominal area....I figure it's from being all tense with the headaches and whatnot. And I should also hear back from my PCP today with the results from my lab work. I'll update when I hear something.

Hope everyone has a great week :)

Sick.....

So....I've been running a fever since Wednesday night and I've had a headache since Monday....ummmmmmm....this sucks. I went to the doctor today and he was quite confused by my symptoms...no inflammation in my throat or eats and my lungs sound great. He poked on my tummy and everything is good there. He asked if I've had any mosquito bites and I showed him my foot...he winced...lol...I have 8 on my right foot....nice. So he prescribed me some vicodin for the headache and sent me to the lab to be tested for West Nile and Valley Fever....

I haven't had a headache like this in a few years....I decided to swing by the chiropractor as a last ditch effort to get rid of this headache...and it hasn't helped...at all. :( My fever is ranging anywhere from 100-105°. My head hurts so stinkin bad that I can't even sleep. I've missed two days of school this week...which puts me 80 hours behind now....hell. I'll be able to make up those hours when the kiddos go back to school...but until then, I'll just make up hours here and there on Saturdays....

Well, I'm starting to ramble now...the pain killers are kicking in....

Hope you all are happy and healthier than me ;) Have a great weekend! I broke down and weighed myself today, I've lost 5 lbs since Monday....I wish I could say it's something I did...but I know it's just because I'm sick and haven't been eating right....oy.

So....this is my breakfast...a lot of people ask what I eat on a daily basis and this is how I start every day. It may look like some yummy chocolate milk. But, unfortunately it's a "yummy" chocolate protein shake. It gives me a great start to my day with 30g of protein. That's half of my daily needs in one glass. This is an 11oz. serving. It takes me about an hour to get it all down....but I do it. If it's a school day, I start drinking it before I even get in the shower, continue sipping while I'm getting ready, and I even take it in the car with me and finish it by the time I get to school.

A lot of people ask me if it's worth it, the surgery that is. And even though I'm quite miserable sometimes...simply because I am a food addict...I still have to say yes. It is completely worth it.

5 weeks post op....

How exciting! I'm still losing!!

Start weight: 281.8 lbs.

Current Weight: 254.0 lbs.

Total lost: 27.8 lbs.

A total of 3.4 lbs lost this week!!

I'm feeling pretty great lately. I started back to school last week. The first day was great, the second day I thought I was going to die and the third day, I felt normal again. I'm eating well and anything I want. I splurged on a vanilla wafer last night. And the really sad part, was that I felt guilty....for one stinkin vanilla wafer. But oh man, it was goooood. lol I over did it on Saturday and into Saturday night for my best friend's birthday party, so all of Sunday I was laid up in bed....literally, passed out, all day long. I didn't even drink at her party...a few sips off of others drinks, just to try them, but I didn't have one whole drink, other than my water the entire night. I'm still afraid to try and drink....oh well. I need to make it into the gym today, just not sure that's gonna happen...I just keep telling myself, it's just another period of adjustment...I'll get used to all this eventually. I was doing really great before I went back to school...but dang....those 33 hours in 3 days is kind of a killer. lol

That's really all I know for now....thanks for reading! Hope everyone is doing good! :)

Change....

So, my face is finally thinning out enough

that I was able to chop off my hair! YAY!! So here it is! :)

~I LOVE IT~

Measurements Update!!!

I think my face looks thinner...either way...Chance took a pretty good pic of me :)

This pic was taken last month.

This month :)

Last monthThis month :)

not any HUGE changes....but still great progress!

Left upper arm: - 1.25"

Right upper arm: -1"

Chest: -1/2"

Waist: - 1.25"

Hips: - 3.75"

Thighs: same

calves: +1/2"

Neck: -1/4"

total inches lost this month: 7 1/2"

Holy smokes!!! I'm not only losing weight, but some inches are gone too!!!

Happy 4th of July!!!!

aaaaand it's my 4 week post op update!

Start weight: 281.8

Current weight: 257.4

Total lost: 24.4

That's so exciting! I lost 3 lbs this week!!! YAYAYAY!!

So in my first month, I've lost 24.4 lbs. that's exciting! And I'm feeling pretty good these days! Not hurting so much, and getting back to normal! I'll post some pics later today! I'm supposed to do them every 4 weeks. EXCITING! :)

Hope everyone has a happy and safe and blessed 4th of July!

Time Flies....

So last night was my 10 year high school reunion, and even though I didn't get to attend, I still feel like there is no way 10 years has gone by. At this time, 10 years ago, I was working at a convenience store and getting all excited about going to college! I never finished...lol...but I do remember being really excited about it. Wish I would have kept that motivation.

I made the comment a few weeks ago about how it would be pointless for me to show up at the reunion because I really haven't made anything of myself...and well, I hurt a few peoples feelings. That wasn't my intention, but that's what happened. I'm at a very awkward place in my life right now. I just had part of my stomach cut out, due to the fact that I couldn't control my portion control on my own.....that's embarrassing in itself. Then I also let my body completely go in the past 2 years....I worked my butt off, lost 60 lbs then put it all back on. I'm a cosmetology student, which just so happens to be a profession that most people label as the losers. The people that couldn't cut it in college.....(yes, I've heard these words come out of peoples mouths...I smile at them, handed them a business card and walked away....assholes) Well, without us "losers" you would be walking around with some ugly ass hair and bushy eyebrows and lips and might not even know how to apply makeup properly. I am still a student, not a professional yet, but it does take a lot of talent to do what we do. Just sayin.....

So back to my point, when I said that I didn't have anything to show for, and I saw that I hurt some people, I really got thinking....

First of all, I have tons to show!! I have two very beautiful, smart, well behaved and AMAZING kiddos! They are my world. I chose to start a family before I chose a career, and there's nothing wrong with that. :D I was blessed to be able to do that.

Secondly, ummmmmm...have you seen or met my hubby!? He's f-n amazing! I never raised these babies by myself! Sleepless nights, yeah he had them too. There was not one feeding in the middle of the night that I did on my own....if i was up, he was up, and sometimes, he even let me sleep!! He changed diapers, bathed, fed and played with those babies every second he got. And even though they're 5 now, he still does everything I do. He even cooks...and is damn good at it too! I'm so lucky......blessed would be a better word.

And thirdly, I may be fat, but I'm moving in the right direction...and I mean does my waistline really make me who I am? Nope. I'm still Billie Lynn....plain ol' Billie Lynn. I like to think I'm funny and caring and a pretty damn good friend. I'm a daughter, a mother, a lover, a wife and a cosmo student! I'm at an amazing stage in my life, not so much awkward. Sometimes it just takes writing things down to really understand that.

Sorry for my ramblings, but this is my journey and things I'm working through. I think we all have times like these. I had a friend that waited a while to get married and start a family, and she thought she was the weird one....lol....so I guess it's just our view of ourselves....

My life may not be what some people had pegged it for, but I think it's right on track....

GREATNESS!!

People are often unreasonable and self-centered

FORGIVE THEM ANYWAY

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives.

BE KIND ANYWAY

If you are honest, people may cheat you.

BE HONEST ANYWAY

If you find happiness, people may be jealous.

BE HAPPY ANYWAY

The good you do today, may be forgotten tomorrow.

DO GOOD ANYWAY

Give the world the best you have, it may never be enough.

GIVE YOUR BEST ANYWAY

For you see, in the end, it is between you and GOD.

IT NEVER WAS BETWEEN YOU AND THEM ANYWAY

~~Mother Teresa

This really struck home today...a friend of mine posted it on facebook and there are so many of those things that I can totally feel and agree with. So I thought I would pass it on...maybe it'll help you out today, it helped me.