1st day at the gym....

It was a success! I felt sooo good when I left...and if felt good just to be back in the gym again. It was also super great, because I had the support of my best friend. We talked and walked on the treadmills for 45 minutes....well, she ran for a bit....not me...lol...not for a while. But it was nice to feel that good for a bit.

Fast forward 3 hours......

I.AM.EXHAUSTED.

This is the only reason why I HATE working out. I always feel super good for about an hour after I workout, then I crash...and I crash hard. I'm lucky my fingers are working at this point...lol

I totally screwed myself from the get go this morning....First of all, I forgot my water....as a sleever, you never, ever, EVER leave home without your water. Then I forgot my towel, which is funny....cause they usually charge, but they let me borrow one for today....they took pity on the new girl...I won't forget it next time...I swear it. And thirdly, I didn't keep track of how many calories I burned....hence I'm exhausted now. My breakfast only consists of about 110 calories....IF I'm lucky. Lots of protein in there, but not very many calories to work on. Hence...my exhaustion. So now, for the rest of the day, I will be exhausted and just working on my water intake.

But even with all my mess ups....I really did enjoy this morning. And the kiddos LOVED it. and like I said yesterday, that's really all that counts ;)

activity today: Treadmill for 45 minutes.....2.15 miles

whaaaaat!?

Yep, we joined a gym. I can't really believe it. I am not, in any way, shape or form a fitness buff. But if I want to get the most out of my sleeve, I need to workout. Am I going to go hardcore? nope. I do plan on going at least 3 days a week. The kiddos are even excited about it. The place has an awesome kids club. And that's all that matters right!? heheheheh..... We got a hell of a deal and the guy even threw in the month to month package for no additional charge....so I'm not totally trapped if we end up not using it. And Chance's company will cover our start up costs....so that's a bonus! Wish me luck...I'll start going tomorrow....

3 Week Post Op.....

WEIGH IN DAY!!!

SW: 281.8 lbs.

CW: 260.0 lbs.

This weeks loss: .4 lbs.

Total lost: 21.8 lbs




Well, at first I was super upset by this....but then I thought to myself, I already lost 21.4 lbs in 2 weeks, I think I can afford to only lose a tiny bit for a week or two. Plus, my pants and shirts aren't as tight as they were last week, so I know I'm losing something...somewhere...lol...

Next week is measurements! I'm excited for that.

blahhhhhhhhh......

I am most definitely having a blah kinda day. Not sure why...I think I did too much yesterday. A mile walk plus a trip to Sam's, plus cleaning for the in laws....I think it has come back to bite me in the ass today. I'm exhausted, and super duper sore. I have NO ambition to eat, or really even move. But I forced myself to get up and go walking this morning. Just a 1/2 mile this morning. Jaxon joined me...it was nice. I'm really worried about going back to school. 10 hour days is going to be hard. But I know I can do it....just another period of adjustment. I just really hope I haven't totally f'd myself. Don't really wanna start from scratch a year from now. That would suck. I have my psych appt at 2:45 today, probably a good day for it. My weight loss is right on track and moving very quickly, I guess these fears are just something that goes along with the territory.


On a lighter note, the in laws made it here safe and sound and the kiddos and I were super happy to see them. They all just vacated the house to go to the grocery store. It's nice to sit in silence for a bit. They brought some stuff from my Momma's storage unit, kinda odd to see so many of the things from my childhood....especially since my childhood involved a married Mom and Dad and now, well, not so much...lol.... My Mom didn't send a few of the boxes I really wanted, but she's going to mail them to me, lots of things to go through. Can't wait! :)

Hope everyone has a great day, I'm sure I will, hot as hell here today. 107° I believe is the high...OUCH! Thank God for the pool.

Day 15...

I have no clever title...never have been good with the title thing...lol...anywho- I had some energy this morning, so I decided to go on a walk with my babies....yeah, they're 5 and I still call them my babies...deal with it...lol We walked from our house up to the main road and back and I used this spiffy little website HERE! Thanks Carrie ;) And it told me approximately how much we walked....pretty cool website if ya ask me. :)



So yep, I'm feeling pretty good today, the in laws are coming to town today!! The kiddos are super excited and I am too. It's nice having them around. It will most definitely be a big test for me. See, my MIL is probably one of the best Southern cooks around. She makes the best f-n Chicken fried steak on the face of the planet, her bread is to die for, and she makes a Red Velvet cake that would bring tears to your eyes....and yep...I really can't eat any of that. The chicken fried steak I could, but that's about it....OH and her chocolate chip cookies are the BEST. And I'm not going to be like "Hey! don't make that! I can't eat that!" LOLOL I would never deprive my kiddos and my hubby from his Momma's awesome cooking....I will most definitely be nibbling on a cookie...I will not denie myself that...so yep, I'm not really expecting big number changes on the scale for next week, but you never know...it could totally happen! I will be able to go walk more since they'll be here to stay with the kiddos. So that will be pretty nifty.


I really miss my Momma. I love having her around, and pretty soon, I bet she'll be even further away, but that's cool...here's to your happiness Momma!! Love you :D

Week 2 Post Op....

Holy crap...I seriously didn't believe my eyes this morning! Check it out...

start weight: 281.8

Current Weight: 260.4

Total Lost: 21.4 lbs.

O.M.G.

Now once again....if I could see it, or feel it, that'd be awesome...but with all my dumb luck, I'm probably just losing muscle mass ;) lol I still have quite a bit of swelling in my abdominal area, but I do notice that my face is getting thinner...and my thighs....so I'll take it...lol...

Once again, thanks for following my journey and letting me share my exciting moments with you!!! :D I'm so happy right now!!! WAHOOO!

Just another day....

I ventured into real food territory yesterday....and I'm not feeling too good about it. Eating has already become tedious for me. Teeny tiny bites, chew 40-60 times, swallow....wait 1-3 minutes, repeat. I have to give myself time to see if it's going to sit well in my tummy or if it's going to make me uncomfortable. I stopped at El Pollo Loco yesterday and picked up an 8 piece mixed chicken meal. For those of you who don't know what El Pollo Loco is, well, it's amazing. Nothing is fried, it's all grilled and it tastes so good! So anywho---I sat down with kiddos and ate a few bites of chicken...but I kinda got ahead of myself and I might have ate too fast, and I hurt myself...lol...not agonizing pain, no puking, I just ate too much too fast. Real food sits a lot differently in your tummy than liquids. So, it's back to the starting boards for me... I tried again today at lunch and did lots better. I ate slowly and waited between bites. I'm finding that chewing and biting and swallowing actual food is more difficult because of all the extra air you swallow. It's not really the food that's making me hurt, it's all the extra air I'm swallowing in the process....so something else I'll have to figure out. Oh, and nothing tastes right anymore....not even my beloved ketchup...it's almost too sweet. Now, I'm not complaining about any of this, well not too much at least....it is difficult for me...not gonna lie. So many of the things that I once loved, and really looked forward to and enjoyed immensely are now gone. It's like a mourning process almost. I'm almost pissed at this point...lol...I'm pissed that I can't enjoy the one thing in life that has always been there for me. It never abandoned me, it never made me feel bad about what I was doing, and it never judged me. And now...I feel like it is...lol....I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's the truth. But I just have to step back and take a few deep breaths and remember that this is what I have chosen, and this is what is going to help me live a longer and happier and healthy life. Once I'm healed I'll be able to redirect my love for food onto something else. Who knows what that will be....but I'm sure it'll be better for me than what I was originally doing. :)