Toot-Toot

So....I went out to eat with a ton of great friends on Friday night and Christina jacked my camera for a few...so I played along. She took some pics of me stuffing my face and making goofy faces, which I figured I would just delete when I got home. But what I saw was something I was proud of. I'm the picture taker....never the one having a picture taken...lol. So I kept these. My face has thinned down a ton....I hadn't noticed until I saw this pic...lol....so I had to share and toot my own horn for a bit...LOL! bare with me people....I haven't been down to 252 lbs. in over 4 years.....sooooooooooooooooo.....Here's the pics.

Nice pic right??? LOL! To most people this would be embarassing....but if you know me...you can see I'm missing part of my triple chin!!! HAHAHA! down 28 lbs!

random pic day...lol

Here are my fire tulips opening!!!

Here it is wide open!!!

Here is Trixie passed out on the couch....she's 17 weeks and 52 lbs...

My babies are growing up......wow

So I went to take a look around a preschool today, and fell in love with it. They have the cutest little rooms and a great setup outside. Two separate playgrounds, and both of the teachers were sweet as could be. I went just to look around, but as soon as I saw how comfy the kiddos were there, and how comfy I was there....I knew it was the one. I enrolled the kiddos in preschool today....wow. When I was driving across town, I was thinking to myself how crazy it was that they were going to turn three in may. It's just insane to me. It feels like just yesterday that I was sitting in the middle of the floor with these two little newborns wondering why in God's name they were given to me....lol...and now they're almost 3, and growing so fast. It's crazy to me. So many sleepless nights, more or less wishing they would grow faster, and now wishing it would slow down a bit. I'm going to probably lose it the day I drop them off......and I'll probably be completely lost....lol....but luckily I'll get a break, and be able to enjoy some me time! It doesn't start til August, but at least I have that all taken care of! I went ahead and split them into two separate classes. They will see each other at outside time and sometimes story time. I'm hoping this will help them become more dependent and stop relying on each other so much. There's nothing wrong with that, but they need it. Madi pretty much talks for Jaxon and Jaxon is pretty much the muscle for Madi...lol....so hopefully Madi will learn how to take care of herself and Jaxon's speech will get better. I just can't wait!!! They're only going on Tuesday and Thursday from 8:30-noon. So it won't be too bad...lol....

Madi and Jaxon just 3 days old......in the NICU

Madi and Jaxon on their 1st birthday!!!

Madi and Jaxon on their 2nd birthday......

and year three is coming very shortly..........................wow........................

Pity party....table for one please.

yep yep yep....been one of those weeks.....I shall start out with good news....I've lost 25 lbs. I went and weighed in this morning and I had lost 2 more pounds. We got the elliptical and the in laws came to visit. They bought the kiddos their entire summer wardrobe!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH! They really don't understand how much that helped us out. Now onto not so good news. My Daddy called on Thursday and told me he saw a doctor on Monday and he prescribed him some pills for his heart and a diuretic pill. My father is a big man and he is built just like me....please see pic below...he had swollen up to well over 320 lbs. He could hardly walk or talk and when he did walk he said it felt like he was walking on pillows. I heard heart pills and took a leap from a 3 mile high bridge. I'm really good when I hear about other people's families or friends or complete strangers talk about health problems...but damn...this is my daddy....and it's not cool.....any who-I'm completely worried....I'm not like crazy or anything, just kinda on edge. I've never really thought about losing my Daddy....and it scares the piss outta me. We don't have the most ideal relationship in the world, but in all honesty..who does? He went back to the doctor yesterday and they told him he had atrial fibrillation.....and I guess it's treatable. (pacemaker) They also put him on a blood thinner. They referred him to a cardiologist and we're waiting for that appointment to be set up. Then I guess we'll go from there.

I guess what bugs me the most, is that I'm not there...I can't see him...I feel completely fucking worthless. I should be there taking care of him and his appointments. I'm the one that was ALWAYS there for him. I think it's shitty that my sister in law is having to take care of all this. All of my siblings have jobs...real jobs...and they are all having to deal with this. I hate feeling worthless....and here I go with my selfish self...talking about how I feel. I'm just weird I guess....I should be the one there....I have been so scared that my parents were going to go out in some weird or horrible way.....and I just feel like it's starting...I'm just getting over their damn divorce....and then here this comes.....I'm a very selfish person and I'm just not ready to give either of my parents up....lol....I guess you could say I'm a 26 year old Daddy's girl........................................but you truly have to understand my father...he would seriously just sit in his chair and ignore every call from his doctor, throw away all postcard reminders and sit in his chair and deteriorate away....so that's why I'm so worried...if there isn't some to kick him in his ass and get him going then he would just forget about it. I'm so thankful that I do have my brother and sister there....thank GOD. Hopefully they can all keep him in check. Please keep him in your prayers...and me too...I'll be making an early trip back to Texas....I'm going to ditch Chance and come early...go and spend some time with my Daddy. See what's going on...and see if there is anything I can help with. I told ya I was freaking out a little.....This is the only time that I hate living so far away....when a family member is down...I can't be there to fix it. I'm a fixer...lol.

There's my rant.....take it or leave it....just typing again.....take care and be blessed....

Why I love California.....

Observe....

We went to the Farmer's Market this morning!! I love that place! Here are a few of our purchases!!

Fresh Kiwi, strawberries, and some grapes.....the grapes aren't from the farmer's market.

All those strawberries for $12....yummmmmy!

Fresh tangerines....TO DIE FOR!!!!

The yellow tulips were given to me yesterday by my little boy!! Thanks hubby! The red tulips are from the farmer's market....they are called fire tulips!! I can't wait for them to open!!!

Here are the kiddos enjoying the goods!!!

Yay for Fridays!!!

Well....I went to my doctor today, and I weighed in.......yikes. Last week I weighed in at 262.2 Not so bueno. So I went in today without high hopes. I hopped on the scales....and BAM! I weighed 257.2!!!! YAY! I lost 5 lbs this past week. I must admit that wine tasting totally threw everything kinda off.....and well I'll just admit I'm not as focused as I was that first few weeks...lol...but I'm back! So I am still at 23 lbs lost....but I'm not complaining. From February 6th to March 13th, I've lost 23 lbs....not so bad if ya ask me! Remember February only had 28 days...LOL! On a high note, we will get our loaner elliptical tomorrow....lol....Sports Chalet has screwed us over a few times, so they are going to give us their floor model until ours comes in....in 4-6 weeks....nice. So I'm excited! If I can hop on that thing for an hour in the mornings at at least 30 minutes at night, I'll be set! Jaxon was sick this week, so I took him to the doctor. He was diagnosed with asthma....big surprise...he gets it from his momma....LOL! He also had an ear infection in his left ear. Poor guy.....then yesterday after nap Madi woke up with green goo in her eye...yuck...so I self medicated her with her with some pink-eye drops, and she's almost all better. Chance's parents will be here tomorrow night, so I'm hoping for a bit of a break....I'm literally exhausted, and moody...lol...not a good combo. Hope everyone has an excellent weekend!!!

It's been a while.....

Boy... I haven't written on this thing in forever!!! Let's see....I'm holding my weight steady between 262 and 257....how annoying...We ordered a Precor elliptical and it should get in this week, so hopefully in the next few weeks I will be reporting much more weight loss....I guess the bike just isn't cutting it. Or I could blame it on WINE TASTING!!! I went with some of the most fun people on Saturday and we enjoyed a day of wine tasting, and just plain having fun! I haven't just relaxed and cut loose like that in FOREVER!! I was able to be loud and crude, and no one cared! Or at least I hope they didn't...lol....Here are a few pics. I have over 300....but I can't post them all here!

First stop....EOS

Christina and I at EOS....really great moscato!!

Next stop....Derby....aka...double wide!!! LOL

3rd stop.....Here is the group at Tobin James!!!

and yes....that is Mr. Tobin James himself! Signing my bottles of wine! He was a super nice guy!

This was probably my favorite place, their wines were amazing and the place was just plain BEAUTIFUL!! (4th stop)

Erin and Tracey....before Tracey got hit by a ton of bricks!!! LOL! Bless her skinny little heart!

Christina, Carla and myself next to the beautiful pond at Bianchi! GORGEOUS!

The group at Clautiere....very cool place...but very very small.....5th stop

I like this pic of me and Carla....she was diggin that hat!!!

This was out in front of Eberle. (6th stop) They had a ton of awards, but I wasn't impressed with their stuff....nor their common courtesy...lol...."Do you want to take the tour or not?" GEEZ! LMAO

And this is the end......what a beautiful perfect day! Thanks for all the fun ladies!!!! You have no clue how much your friendship means to me. Thank you for that.

Carla, Erin, Christina, Erika, Cynthia, Tracey, me, and Peejay!