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Just checking to see if my phone is connected to my blog. I'll update from the hospital if this works.

My new journey...

Yep...that's me....I'm way more nervous than I look...

Boy oh boy...its been a while...last I wrote, I was still battling with my weight. And I still am...but I have chosen to take my weight loss into my own hands and get a gastric sleeve. This is not a decision that I didn't think about. I've been thinking about a lap-band for the past two years. My doctor approved me for that almost a year and a half ago...but I was chicken, and thought I could do it on my own. Well 20 lbs later, it's apparent that I couldn't.

For those of you who have judged me for my decision, saying it's an easy way out, I would like to know how you came to that conclusion. How could cutting out 80% of my stomach be an easy way out. I will no longer be able to enjoy the foods that I love. I have had to start going to psychologist just for my food addiction....yep, My name is Billie Lynn and I'm a food addict. For the first year I will be living off of liquid and pureed and soft foods. If that's an easy way out, well then I've got it all wrong. I'm not looking forward to all the hardships ahead of me, but it's something I have to do. For my health, for my children and for myself. I want to see then grow up and I want to see my grandchildren grow up too.

I took my measurements...not so fun...oy...it's embarrassing to see how much I let myself go...but here they are, with a pre-op picture or two or four...

6/5/11 Measurements

Left wrist 6.5"

Right writst 6.5"

Left upper arm 17.25"

Right upper arm 17.25

Chest 48"

Waist 47"

Hips 56.5"

Left thigh 31"

Right thigh 32"

Left calf 16.5"

Right calf 16"

Dress size 22/24

Shirt Size 22/24

Bra Size 40F

Ring Size 9"

Shoe Size 9.5"

Neck size 16"

Weight: 281 lbs

Tomorrow is the big day....I'm praying for a good, no problems kind of surgery....please say a few prayers for me :)

oy.

I loooove when my family comes to visit me!!! Particularly my Momma....but the only problem is that I lose all motivation to workout and eat right....oops. No weight loss to report. :( But I am maintaining! super sweet.

no news is good news...

I guess.

I've been doing really great with my eating, even splurged a bit on my Momma's homemade fresh peach cobbler...lol...but my weight is holding steady at 261. Usually if I even look at something like that you can tack on 3 lbs for the next week! HAHAHA!!! So that's great.

I know what I need to do....

Now I just need to do it. Losing 60 lbs last year sure as hell didn't happen by me sitting on my booty, playing on the computer...LOL So day two is down. All done. woke up this morning and I got my big fat 261 lb. ass on the elliptical! HA! 2 lbs down....werd.

So I hopped my big 263 lb booty on the elliptical today...oy....so sad. Last year at this time I weighed about 230 lbs.... I'm very disappointed with myself. I can't believe I worked so dang hard last year, lost 60 lbs and have managed to put 40 of it back on! ugh. Oh well....here's to another new beginning!

... I have to look at a small bright side...I didn't put ALL 60 lbs back on, so I had to be doing something kinda right. Right!?! ;)

soooooooooo....not the best picture quality I've ever had, BUT this looked really great in person! I did her hair & makeup for her friends wedding! :) I haven't done hair or makeup in about 5 years, so I was super excited about doing it! And I think it came out pretty darn good! She's a very beautiful lady, so she didn't really need much help.